CHAPTER 22 –
© MOMOH GIFT
Greenfield hospital No. 22 Azikwe road.
I heard that name again this time louder than the previous times.
Hmmm! Why this name since midnight?
I woke up with a very strong burden in my heart to visit that particular hospital. Then I knew that the Holy Spirit wanted me to be there since I do go for evangelism in prison yards, hospitals, and schools.
Also, while praying, I heard the name of this hospital so many times and I became very restless in my spirit.
I knew the hospital very well because it is located in the same town where I grew up. I really don’t know the specific reason why the Holy Spirit is urging me to go there.
Maybe He wants me to evangelize to the people in that particular hospital and to also pray with them.
Anyway! There is no time to start asking too many questions because I feel It’s a matter of urgency. I will know when I get there as He leads me Himself.
I quickly began to dress up so as to get there on time while I spoke to myself recalling all the good things the Holy Spirit has done so far in my life.
Hmmm! It’s indeed a great thing to have a deep relationship with the Holy Spirit.
He is more than a million friends put together.
I had enjoyed His love so much and to be sincere I never believed that my life could change positively to this extent within such a limited period.
The Lord has taken away all my sins and has given me a brand new life.
He has taught me greatly a lot of mysteries I never knew about him.
Oh! What would have happened to me if I had not found Christ genuinely.
I am really grateful.
Hmmm! Who would have thought that the same Florence who has been so desperate to be married to bro Ade and who had lived a double life is now a vessel that is being used mightily by the Almighty God? I thought that marriage was everything I needed.
I thought that marrying a very strong spiritual brother like Bro Ade would make my life complete.
I wanted a man whom God has spent so much time molding and grooming not knowing that God never gives His own child to someone who really does not deserve him.
I wanted a spiritual giant brother as a husband but I was still a spiritual dwarf who does not even have any relationship with God.
I never knew my purpose. I never had any idea about where I was going.
All I wanted was just to be married to someone most especially a pastor so that I would be called “mama” and also be the envy of other young ladies.
Now I know better. I know that the period of being single for a lady is not a time to be going after deep spiritual brothers seeking attention but a time to grow deeper in my relationship with God.
A time to get busy fulfilling my purpose and doing the will of my heavenly father.
It is the time to win more souls and do exploits for my heavenly father. Oh! Thank you, Jesus.
Oh! I’m getting late already. Time to go now.
Spirit of God please guide my steps.
Grant me the grace to do that which you want me to do.
I come against every power from the pit of hell. I am covered by the blood of Jesus. Thank you, sweet Holy Spirit.
* *. *. Hmmm! I really can’t afford to lose my mum this way.
I feel so bad right now. My kid sister has just reminded me of how I was on fire for Christ those days. How I was a radical for Jesus.
Oh! How did I get to this point? I was once on fire for God.
I used to pray for so many sick people back in those days on campus. So many miracles and healings took place.
But my love for money and pleasures has brought me to this point.
I was so desperate to become wealthy and I left the Lord.
My mum who has labored so hard to make sure that both of us had the fear of God in our hearts would be so disappointed to realize that I am very far away from God. I can’t even remember the last time I prayed and studied the word of God. I am so ashamed of myself right now.
No! I won’t forgive myself if my mum should die in this hospital. I am not going to sit down here and just watch her die gradually.
Don’t even think of calling God’s name now because you have done so many wrongs already.
You are not fit to be used by God anymore.
You are just useless right now.
You disappointed God at first and now He has rejected you as his own.
You disobeyed all the instructions of God and went ahead to do your own will just like King Saul in the bible and now He has rejected you as well. You are not worthy anymore. You are not worthy. The voice became very loud in my spirit.
Noooooo! I broke down in tears. People were just watching me as I was acting very strange. Then I heard a familiar voice shouting my name.
Bro Ayo! Bro Ayo! What is wrong with you? Why are you screaming and what are you doing here in this hospital when you are supposed to be in the office right now?
Sister Florence! You? I looked at her very shocked because I really didn’t know what she was doing there and was never expecting to see someone I knew at that place. But as I stared at her, her face became blurry and then I passed out.
Somebody help me! Please help me.
Big bro! Ah! Please wake up. Jesus! A young girl whom I perceived to be bro Ayo’s kid sister threw the nylon bag in her hand containing banana on the floor as she began to shout and drag her brother’s clothes at the same time.
Thank God for the quick intervention of the nurses who came around and rushed him to a ward. Then I grabbed the little girl’s hand smiled at her and said “Fear not dear one for the Lord is in charge”.
Just like magic, she became very calm and stable.
My mum is also in the other ward lying unconscious. Please come and pray for her ma. She said politely to me.
Your mum? Where is she?
She is over there. I looked in the direction she was pointing to and saw the big description written “female ward” on the door.
Since the doctors were attending to Bro Ayo, I decided to follow her to pray for Mum.
Hmm! I believe this is the reason why the Holy Spirit asked me to come over here.
Oh, Lord! Please have your way. Take absolute control, Father. I prayed silently in my heart as we entered the ward.
The mum was lying on the bed with oxygen fixed on her nose and she was not even moving at all with her eyes closed as well.
I went straight to where the woman was lying down and I held her hand gently while the young girl fixed her gaze on me with so much eagerness to see what the outcome of my prayers would be.
As I was about to pray, I heard the Holy Spirit say “Worship”. Then I began to worship God in songs.
Though there was nothing happening at first, I wasn’t afraid or in doubt because I had full confidence that God had never failed before and this one would not be the first. Since He sent me here then definitely He would do something extraordinary.
I continued to worship God though not loud so as not to disturb any other patients in the ward while the young girl kept on staring at me and also at her mum with tears in her eyes.
Excuse me ma! Please you are not allowed to be here for now. This is the time for us to check the patients. I’m really sorry but you have to excuse us for now till the next few hours. We really don’t want any disturbance this time. A nurse pleaded with me politely.
Oh no! My mum needs this prayer, not the drugs. Please allow this Aunty to pray for her. Don’t send us out of here, please.
It’s okay my dear. Let’s obey the nurse. There is no distance in the spirit.
We shall continue our prayers outside and I believe that your mum shall be touched by the healing power of God.
Please let’s just allow the nurses to do their work so as not to cause trouble here.
Aunty! Are you really sure about this? Are you sure that my mum would be fine again? I really don’t want my mum to be like this anymore, please.
Don’t worry my dear God will take control. I believe that the nurses are done checking your big bro. Let’s just go and see him before we go outside the hospital to pray.
Oh! Thank you so much ma. You are really an Angel. The young girl smiled at me.
Immediately we entered the ward, we saw Bro Ayo staring at the ceiling with tears flowing from his eyes.
He looked very weak as well.
I failed Him. I lost everything. I disappointed Him. I threw away my gold to have stones.
Bro Ayo continued to weep bitterly while his younger sister watched him with so much confusion on her face.
Other patients who were awake were also watching him as he lamented without any form of shame.
Oh, sweet Holy Spirit please take over in this situation.
I submit myself to you and I ask that you speak through me to your son.
I don’t want him to hear my own words but your own voice through my lips.
Let his hope and life be restored again.
I prayed silently in my heart.
Please young girl what is your name? I turned towards bro Ayo’s sister who was just sitting down helplessly on a chair close to her big brother.
My name is Olamide but I’m being referred to as Ola by mummy and big brother.
That’s a beautiful name my dear. Please get a tin of milk from the closest shop so that your big bro can take it because he looks very weak already.
I tried using that to make her leave the environment for a while so that I could speak quietly with Bro Ayo in order not to disturb other patients I really don’t want the young girl to be disturbed further by whatever her big bro might say.
She collected the money sadly from me and walked out slowly from the ward.
Bro Ayo! Why are you allowing the voice of the devil to prevail? Why are you listening to that strange voice? Yes! I know that you have missed it and also disappointed God as you said moments ago, but that doesn’t mean He has rejected you.
The truth is that He still loves you so much and has been fighting for you even without your awareness.
His presence has always been with you.
Just like the prodigal son, you had wandered away but as a father, he is still waiting for you to come back. His death for you on the cross must not be in vain.
Oh! I’m so ashamed of myself. I left my place of comfort and shield and went in search of what would never give me pleasure. I can’t bear to see my mum die. I won’t be able to forgive myself. I had prayed for others in the past and they all received their healing but right now I can’t even pray for my mum because I have lost my place. I thought Christian Life was not profitable when I saw how other unbelievers were making it without any struggle.
At first, I thought I would be able to serve God and still cope with doing what others were doing.
I thought I could dine with the devil with a long spoon and never fall into his trap but I fell right into it.
My lack of contentment has brought me to this place right now. I really don’t know if the Lord will forgive me for all I have done and restore me back again.
Bro Ayo! Please don’t keep Him waiting for too long. He is knocking at the door of your heart and waiting patiently for your response.
He is ready to accept you back. Not just for you to become one of his slaves like the way the prodigal son expected but to accept you back as his own son. Please open up yourself to Him now that there is still time.
Hmmm! I am so ashamed of myself father. Just like the prodigal son, I am back and pleading for your forgiveness.
I had wandered about for too long.
I had forsaken all that you gave to me. I am so sorry for all I have done Father. Oh! Please give me another chance Jesus.
I am deeply sorry for everything.
TO BE CONTINUED