Nwala: THE BITTERSWEET EXPERIENCE

CHAPTER 20 –
© OPEYEMI OJERINDE AKINTUNDE

The next few weeks leading to the Fire week had me in
mixed feeling I was chosen as the head of his protocol
since I was a member of his church; I was to book his
hotel accommodation, take care of his welfare as they
believed I knew him better. The mixed feelings was that of fear of seeing him after
shunning him off, and on the side I was excited. The D-day came and I was literally shaking when he
stepped out of his car. He had driven himself and I
could see the way two of the protocol ladies were in
awe of him, same with the two male protocol officers…
“We are so happy to have you here” I said trying to
sound as official as possible.
“Thank you Nwala” There was no hiding with Reuben, he made it known right there, that we were familiar
with each other. “We will like to take you to your hotel to relax before
the evening service”
“Ok” He replied
“The student bus will go ahead and you can follow us”
I said trying to run away as far as I could
“Ok” He replied again
We; the protocol officers rushed towards the bus, but
Reuben was not planning to let go of me easily. “Nwala, ride with me”
I wanted to say No, but that would be raising too
much eyebrow.
‘Ok sir”
I got into the vehicle, and his first question amazed
me. “How is Daniel?”
“He…He is fine”
“I am trying to move on”
“Good to know” I replied swallowing the lump that
had formed in my throat. “I pray Daniel makes you happy” He said
“Amen”
“Your mum keeps asking how it is going between us
and just to save your neck, I keep telling her we are
still getting to know each other”
“Thanks, no wonder she never ask me about Daniel”
“I gat you” he said smiling. Those three words felt like
promissory words to me like the Vow couples
exchange during their wedding. There was a moment of Silence after that, but Reuben
was not ready to waste any minute we were spending
together. “I hope Daniel grows in the Lord, so Mum’s fear about
him will not materialize”
“He is growing, he now attends church” I said
eagerly…
“Good to know” We got to the hotel and I led him to his suite. From
that moment, I saw a shift, he started treating me very
official. I believe the conversation we had in the car had shown him there was nothing that could blossom
between us. The two days Reuben ministered were FIRE in
capitals. He taught on “KNOWING THE WILL OF
GOD” and he connected it with aligning with God. He
set the campus on fire. I saw things clearly. I wasn’t
aligning with God. If I was in alignment with God, I
wouldn’t be with Daniel. Daniel didn’t see the point in
Christianity. He believed Christianity was just an
ideology. He believed in God the supreme being, but
he didn’t believe he needed an intermediary in the
person of Jesus. Reuben taught us the need to align with God, so we
may know his plan and purpose for us…
On the last night, he told us all to spend thirty
minutes in the presence of God asking HIM for His
will for us as regards any area of our lives. There was a sentence that stuck with me…
“It’s okay for your pastor, your parents to receive
God’s will for you in career, marriage, business, but
what makes you at peace with that choice, is hearing
from God yourself”
I felt like he was talking to me about us… I took the
session of prayer seriously…
“God, what is your will for me in marriage, is it Daniel
or Reuben or none of the above?”
“HONOUR THY FATHER & THY MOTHER, THAT
YOUR DAYS MAY BE LONG”
I heard the words clearly. That was probably the first time, I would get an
express answer from God. There was no beating about the bush, if I were to
honour my parents in the relationship matter, it
would be to go for Reuben…
I stood up from the service, I didn’t want to hear it. How could I leave Daniel? No, it wasn’t right. It wasn’t
fair, why continue the circle of rich marrying rich…
“This is not about class, but beliefs” I heard another
response in my heart…
“Abraham sent his servant to look for a wife for his
son from among his people, Abraham wanted a wife
for Isaac that shared his beliefs… Daniel doesn’t share
in your beliefs, but your mother knows Reuben does. Just like Abraham, your mother has chosen rightly for
you” I heard these words as I paced angrily in front of
the chapel…
No! I didn’t want to let Daniel go…
“Nwala, are you okay?” I heard my Service Unit leader
in school say
“Bro Jeff, is it right for God to tell you to leave a man
you love and marry a man your family loves…”
“Yes… He is God and He knows the end from the
beginning. He sees what your future with the two men
hold for you…” Bro Jeff touched my shoulder, and it
felt like he threw me into a vision.

I saw myself in a small apartment. I saw our wedding
pictures; Daniel and I, hanging on the wall… I saw
Daniel coming in very drunk. “Daniel…” I rushed towards him
“Get your hands off me, you unfortunate human being, I thought marrying you will give me a life God never
gave me, but no, I am back to where I never wanted to
find myself. Your useless parents are of no good, they
can’t even give you money…”
“That’s because they never supported our union”. I
heard myself saying
“Then poverty will kill us and the children. Stupid girl!
And yet she will keep shouting ‘God! God
Can you imagine your mother has not been here to see
your twins…” Daniel kept ranting


I found myself racing swiftly to a new place and I
found myself in a beautiful house. I saw the wedding
pictures… It was Reuben & Amara. I saw Reuben carrying Amara. Amara was heavily
pregnant…
“Don’t let me fall” Amara said laughing
“How can you fall when you are in my hands?” His
smile was genuine, loving and sweet. “I am just saying”
“How can I let my babies fall… The big baby and two
small babies”
“Reuben, you keep prophesying babies, please I don’t
want two” Amara said happily like a child. They were so beautiful to watch. “God told me they are two, he told me our first fruit
will have two seeds…”
“Well, we will split the responsibility, you will carry
one, while I carry the other”
“No problem, I gat you” The ‘I gat you’ had a deja vu feeling. He had said that
to me in reality and now in the future, he was saying it
to Amara. That made me realize that Regardless of Who Reuben
married, he was going to have the woman’s back. Tears poured out of my eyes as it looked so real and I
felt a great pain of loss in my heart… “I love you darling” He said to Amara.


I jerked back to the present with tears in my eyes.. “So what’s your choice? Bro Jeff said like he knew
what I had seen…
I opened my mouth, but couldn’t find my voice…
To be continued…